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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Aug 30, 2007 14:10:07 GMT -5
"I'm not young enough to know everything anymore." Xander aid with a warm smile. "I sure as hell wish I knew."
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Post by Jack Lupus on Aug 30, 2007 14:24:39 GMT -5
Cass turned around silently just to stare at him, not caring if he saw her looking weak or close to tears. She scratched at her arm, sometimes the scars itched, but then self-consciously tugged t the sleeve and hid her arms behind her back, looking at her feet before glancing back up at Xander. “Sorry I’m not a very good hostess.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Aug 30, 2007 14:48:38 GMT -5
"I'm a bad guest anyway...." Xander said thickly, putting his arms around her. "God, Cass.... I still can't believe it...."
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Post by Jack Lupus on Aug 30, 2007 14:54:45 GMT -5
Cass leaned against him, turning her head to press against his chest and hear his heart beating. She stayed silent, maybe if she never spoke again he’d let her stay there forever.
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Aug 30, 2007 16:29:09 GMT -5
Xander rested his chin on top of her head, smiling slightly. "I think you've gotten shorter, Cassie..."
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Post by Jack Lupus on Aug 30, 2007 18:19:56 GMT -5
“You’re cheating.” Cass said quietly. “I’m not wearing shoes.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Aug 30, 2007 19:32:23 GMT -5
"And that's my fault?" Xander grinned dryly
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Post by Jack Lupus on Aug 31, 2007 21:20:47 GMT -5
“No.” Cass answered in the same quiet tone, tilting her head to look up at him. “But it’s still cheating.”
“Xander,” She ducked her head back down. “Not that it fixes or even changes anything but for what it’s worth, I’m sorry. For everything.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 1, 2007 0:29:26 GMT -5
"Now's not a time to be sorry..." Xander said, rather uncomfortably
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 1, 2007 13:17:18 GMT -5
“What else am I supposed to do?” Cass pulled away, just enough to look him in the eye. “Everything hurts. At least with being sorry I can be angry with myself for being so incredibly stupid.”
“And I am sorry, Xander, I’m not just saying it. I mean, God, for years I never even hinted at how much I love you until it was too late because I was f**k**g terrified of getting hurt. Well,” She gave a short, bitter laugh. “Look where that got me. And I’m still scared shitless of saying any of this to you but I figure, what the hell, you don’t even know what you want; so, I don’t have anything to lose.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 1, 2007 20:12:28 GMT -5
"I've thought a lot about this, Cass..." Xander said slowly, glancing around to look at anything but her
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 1, 2007 21:13:12 GMT -5
Cass squeezed her eyes closed, pushing away from him to hide that she’d started shaking violently. “If you- If you’re staying with Carrie just, just leave. Just wait for them in the living room.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 1, 2007 21:26:00 GMT -5
Xander frowned slightly, staring at Cass with absolutly no idea of what to say to her
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 1, 2007 21:35:34 GMT -5
Cass whimpered, looking at him. “Why?” She shook her head violently, blinking back tears.
“I don’t care, just go. f**k**g leave!” She yelled, weakly shoving him before collapsing on the floor to tuck her knees under her chin. “Leave me alone.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 1, 2007 22:23:36 GMT -5
"Cass..." Xander said weakly, staring at her
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 2, 2007 0:16:17 GMT -5
“What, Xander?” Cass stared back at him, clenching her jaw. “What do you want? What do you want from me?”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 2, 2007 0:28:16 GMT -5
"I didn't..." Xander started, then cleared his throat, though his vice was still shaky. "I didn't... choose her...."
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 2, 2007 0:31:47 GMT -5
“Oh, that’s f**k**g bull shit.” Cass snorted. “She didn’t propose to herself and even if she did, you’re choosing her now.”
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Post by Evlyn Montgomary on Sept 2, 2007 0:33:14 GMT -5
"I chose her then." Xander agreed rather uncomfotably. "But..." he sighed, shaking his head. "Maybe I SHOULD just go..."
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Post by Jack Lupus on Sept 2, 2007 0:38:01 GMT -5
“Bye.” Cass shook her head, looking away. “You know, Xander, I’ll move on because there’s nothing more I can do but you, you’re gonna have to spend the rest of your life knowing that you could have had us; that we could’ve had us and you chose to stay with a woman you don’t even love.”
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